fave month over.

october. over. weird. today is halloween, and i had to write something - although it has to be short, because i have to sleep. now. actually 6 hours ago. my room mate and i just gave ourselves a bedtime for this week - 11 pm - because it is needed. this past week was my practicum, and it has been the most sleepless week of my life. this cannot happen again.

obviously i'm not a very good blogger, but hopefully that can change sometime soon.

i only check fb once a day, so i feel accomplished in my technology cleansing goal. i could do better on the tv, but sometimes i just want/need to watch my name is earl. :)

my next goal is about nutrition, because i am forced to have a nutrition goal for my health class this week. i think it's basically exercising (any kind) 4/7 days (so that leaves mon-thurs) for me since the class is on thursday. and my prof also gave us a list of eating goals, and i'm supposed to pick one. so anyway, when i look at that, hopefully tomorrow, i will write down my specific goals.

this is good. i like it.

good weekend. good halloween. can't believe it's over.

well. welcome november.

what the hfac happened to fall??

today it snowed.

i don't understand.

one day it was summer, HALF A DAY it was fall, and now it's winter?!?! no.

no. no. no.

anyway, i'll get over it.

also today: i had my first day in the practicum. this means that i spent the day in a 2nd grade classroom, and will be doing it every day for the next four weeks. it was awesome. i was nervous, but then i met the students. and then i wasn't. now i'm just excited. more to come..

my technology cleansing is going well. i have only been on facebook once a day (proud). and on saturday i wasn't even on it at all. :) as for tv.. well, i have to admit i have watched 3-4 episodes of my name is earl. BUT. it's been while i've been eating or doing other things. like cleaning my room. however, i did it before i was done with whatever i had to do. so, it's kinda not ok, but it's kinda ok. i also watched a french movie called the chorus (must see!!) while preparing for my introductory lesson in 2nd grade. and i watched the bodyguard while grading exams for my norwegian class today. so i feel like i'm doing well, but could be doing better. still a couple of more days (or only one?) until a week has passed, so we'll see if i can do better by then.

wow. so much more i want to/need to write about, but it will/have to wait.

as for the snow. i like my winter coat. but i don't like the snow.

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day one.

tv/movies: none

facebook: once (and what a downer that was - it took me 5 seconds to check that i had no red number in the top left corner)

i'm doing good.

i love tv.

you know those days where you hate everything about your life but when you actually think about it you're just regretting things you've done or haven't done? well, today is one of those days.

i love tv. i have been watching excessive amounts of it since i was a child. tv shows that i have watched every single episode of, or am in the process of completing, include, but are not limited to:

• dawson's creek
• buffy - the vampire slayer
• angel
• prison break
• greek
• glee
• bones
• my name is earl
• the office

this is a problem when i watch tv instead of doing my homework. i have been known to spend 6 hours (or more) in one day on a show. or sometimes a whole night. i have a problem.

i have a tendency to want to escape my own reality and into a fictional one in form of a tv show. (this is way less emo than it sounds btw.) i become obsessed and am the first to admit it. i will never stop, but i can regulate.

i'm trying something here. and it's bearing my soul and some of my inner secrets to the world (more figuratively than literally, since few of the 6 billion people in the world read this). i will make an action plan for myself. the goal is to reach my fullest potential. this is also my reward and motivation. the plan is called: lene=awesome.

no one is perfect, and they won't be in this life. i am included in this, so i shouldn't expect perfection of myself. if i don't succeed (which is not the same as fail btw) i will simply try again. every week i will post a new personal goal and track my success. only one goal at a time, and a week to try and master it. i can do it. (because i'm a strong, independent woman. - name that movie. (twilight))

goal 1: technology cleansing

i will only watch tv or movies when i have done the work i need to do for the day.

i will only check facebook once a day.

starting now.

yes.

fave.

october.

today is october 1st. 1 month ago i started this blog. 6 entries in 1 month is nothing to brag about, so i've decided to be more diligent at blogging. few people read this blog, and the ones that do (at least so far - who knows when i'll catch a break and become a world famous blogger?) are family and friends, so it's ok for me to get a little personal.

and that's exactly what i haven't been. personal. i realized that i am holding back, and that is something i struggle with. opening up. letting people in. and since i want to change this, why not start by sharing a little more of myself here on my blog.

october is my favorite month. the leaves. ah, the colors. the crisp, fresh air is my second favorite part about october, and fall in general. it's still summer weather here in provo so it hasn't really been feeling like fall yet. but i have faith. halloween is just around the corner. ah, halloween! i cannot WAIT!

i used to want to get married in october. once, while in stockholm, and the temple, i went to this outlet mall (kinda) by the temple and i saw a wedding picture of this couple standing on one side of a pond with the photographer on the other side, and the ENTIRE scene surrounding them was filled with red, orange, and yellow trees and leaves. it was breath-taking, and since was my dream wedding picture.

however, now i realize that august is the month for me. reasons will probably be described in the blogpost where i reveal all my wedding plans.

how's that for being more open? clearly i still have a long way to go. but it's been fun. and there's more to come.

so much more.

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