late night ramblings.

it's late.

and i'm up.

again.

i do this. i stay up late doing nothing. and then kinda ruin the next day because i sleep in. productiveness goes out the window.

but.

i'm on summer break.

however.

i've had far too many late nights and lazy days following.

so. i am making a list. of things i have to do tomorrow. to cross off.

i love lists. need to start using them again. in preparation for real life that begins in less than three weeks. what? no. that can't be. what happened to all my summer plans?

this just makes me sad. and disappointed.

again.

but.

life isn't over. this year isn't over. this month isn't over. and neither is this week.

i have this thing where i think that just because i am a certain way at the beginning of a school year i have to stay that way for the rest. well. i don't. i told myself at the beginning of this year that 2014 was going to be my year, and dammit, i will make sure that it will be (excuse my English...).

so.

ramblings.

that's what this blog is all about, and i kind of like it. i stayed up late mostly partly because i was catching up on some blog reading, which i haven't done in over a year. and, you know. my blog will never be like anyone else's. and that's ok. while i admire their photos and poetic musings, i have to be ok with who i am on this blog.

which will always be lene - the girl who sometimes takes good pictures, and sometimes steal someone else's (ok, how do you even spell that? elses' elses else's??) - with the proper credit due. lene - the girl who is sad a lot of the time, and tries to therapeutically write her feelings down. lene - the girl who tries to open up more and be more vulnerable, and sometimes shares something embarrassing about herself. lene - the girl who does try to make a more interesting blog, but realizes she needs to go out and experience something in order to have something interesting to write about.

guess what? tomorrow i am getting eyelash extensions. by someone who's still in training. so. it could be a disaster. i am also walking/playing w mochi, the little french bulldog puppy i see for an hour every day. and i need to find a mechanic to fix my car. because it needs fixing in order to be legal. oh, and i need insurance and an american drivers license too. and to clean the bathroom. i also have a pile of papers and various documents that needs organizing, a budget to create, clothes to mend, crafts to finish, museums to visit, personal training sessions to cash in on, christmas (2013) presents to ship, books to read, friends to hang out with, weeds to pull, a hot tub to drain, clean, and refill, and probably one million more things.

but. i'd rather watch netflix in bed.

however, i will not do that. not tomorrow. and hopefully not the next day either.

ok.

this was sufficiently theraputic.

bye.








ps. i also need a man.

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